Changes

It was an amazing year. It may have happened when we got married the year before. It may have happened when I started working two jobs. It may have happened when my sister had her baby. It may have happened when I turned 26. It may have happened when we switched churches. I don't know when it happened, but something is different...things have changed. I have changed. I am changing. Circumstances in our lives are changing all the time, but I DON'T LIKE CHANGE! All of a sudden there's another person living with me who is NOT a neat-nick like I am and he's messy and likes things a lot louder than I do. Whatever happened to a little peace and quiet? Doesn't everyone know that you're supposed to reel out toilet paper from the bottom, NOT THE TOP! Who cares if I don't squeeze the toothpaste tube the right way and roll the end?? Since when did making money and paying bills make me so tired? How come I work all the time but have nothing but an empty bank account? Where does it all go? How did my older sister go from being the girl who wouldn't stop fixing her hair in the bathroom to being the most amazing wife and mother on the face of the planet? Since when do I like the color olive and looking at bedroom suits and recipes on Better Homes and Gardens.com? Now I shop in the women's section instead of the teeny-bopper side. Do the clothes in Vanity really fit anybody besides the mannequins? Do people really care what I look like on the outside? Why do I have to go to bed right at 10:00pm? Since when can I not stay up late talking to my girlfriends and giggling all night? Why do I drink so much coffee now? Is my husband really getting paid to be the answer to my prayers and the fulfillment of what I have always dreamed for in a life-mate? My family and friends, this cannot be! Alas, this is who I have become. I must embrace change for all it's worth because it's out of my control. Rather than try to be the person I used to be and in essence try to be someone I'm not, I should just take a deep breath...and go with it. I must embrace the lyrics of this song: "I will never be, the same again. I can never return, I've closed the door. I will walk the path, I'll run the race. And I will never, be the same again. No I will never, be the same again."